Love: Waiting – Holy Saturday

With the highlights of Good Friday and the light of Easter Sunday, Holy Saturday, or Black Saturday, can sometimes get lost in the Easter season. Holy Saturday signifies the day “Jesus Christ’s body lay in the tomb.” Like this dark time, we may also find our own lives going through periods feeling lost, hopeless and filled with darkness.

In this short but powerful video, Alain Emerson poignantly poses a challenging question about our relationship with God during the midst of pain, abandonment or anguish. He asks, “When was the last time you were truly honest with God?”

Sometimes when we pray about certain situations, it seems to get worse and waiting for answers only finds silence. This makes everything about praying seem hopeless. However, Alain’s honesty with God helped him find victory during a difficult time in his life.

This is a life-changing message I wish to share with you on this Easter season.

God bless you with abundant peace.

 

 

“Why Can’t I Just Be Your Little Suburban Housewife?”

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Jean Donovan (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Maybe it was as you said, Jean, your God called you away from an ordinary suburban life to something bigger than life.

However, you left a broken-hearted fiancé, standing frozen with only a devastated heart longing only to drop the groceries we just bought and stop you from going to El Salvador.

Your God called. I could only watch you walk away.

All the goodness that was in you still lives bright in my memory, Jean, from your volunteer work with the Cleveland Diocese Poor Youth Ministry to the Diocesan Mission Project in El Salvador.

So dedicated were you to help those in need, you completed the lay-missionary course at Maryknoll in New York State and was quite anxious to help the refugees of the Salvadoran Civil War, providing shelter, food, and medical care.

However, you also wanted a family as you wrote:

“…I sit there and talk to God and say, ‘Why are you doing this to me? Why can’t I just be your little suburban housewife?’

In all honesty, my selfishness wanted your goodness to stay here with me.

You tried to follow your desires saying, “several times I have decided to leave–I almost could except for the children…Who would care for them? Whose heart would be so staunch as to favor the reasonable thing in a sea of their tears and loneliness? Not mine.”

On December 2, 1980, five brutal Salvadoran soldiers decided the light of goodness over El Salvador was not welcomed, and in “a relatively isolated area,” they beat, raped and murdered you, and three nun companions.

Your God called you home, Jean Donovan. Twenty-seven is too young to have your goodness extinguished.

As Martyrs of El Salvador, blessed are we the living for their self less life in helping those suffering, especially the children, from the devastating effects of civil war.

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This post is part fiction and part true to life. The bold italic print is my imagination as seen from Jean Donovan’s young physician fiancé viewpoint.

Jean was not only to be married but, also, gave up a management consultant career with a nationwide accounting firm before deciding that El Salvador was where God wanted her to be.

Can you imagine giving up a relatively safe life for dangerous missionary work? If this is the stuff we have to give up, you know, sacrifice, to become living saints, I can see why there are so few on the road.

Do you think this was an easy choice for Jean Donovan to make…wanting so badly to be married and be offered a great career position as well? 

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Weekly Writing Challenge: Stylish Imitation

In this week’s Daily Post Weekly Writing Challenge: Stylish Imitation, I literally freaked and thought, no way, this is too difficult a challenge. The first question asked that you tell about a writer whose style most influenced your writing voice.

This question left me afraid because I do not know my writing voice! I am so embarrassed to admit this! This is shameful on my part but thankfully, I do know what I am not, that is, I cannot write in the epic styles found in writers like Leo Tolstoy or James A. Michener. I am so in awe with anyone that can write a book like, War and Peace or Michener’s, Texas.

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As the challenge probed me to think deeper into what my writing voice actually sounds like, I discovered the one author whom, from the time I read, From the Angel’s Blackboard–The Best of Fulton J. Sheen, I knew, profound writing, in a simple, straightforward fashion, was possible.

For example, Fulton Sheen wrote, “I feel it is time that I pay tribute to my four writers, Matthew, Mark, Luke and John.”

Just like that, no fancy words or hard to understand churchy words, just, “…it is time that I pay tribute…four writers…

So, as I continue to search out my writing voice, let me pay tribute, in my amateurish and shallow in comparison way, to the four five writers, Matthew, Mark, Luke, John and Fulton, by briefly writing out some of my feelings about the tragic day, September 11.

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Brothers and sisters: How can one begin to understand, on this day, September 11, these words found in Sacred Scriptures:

“But to you who are willing to listen, I say, love your enemies! Do good to those who hate you. Bless those who hurt you…Love your enemies! Do good to them.” (Luke 6: 27-28 and 35)

As I read these words, and thought about the tragedy of 9-11, I admit, I found these words very difficult to ponder upon much less think to put into practice.

I am shouting:  HOW DOES ONE LEARN TO FORGIVE?!?

God, they took down so many lives, left so many hurting, and you ask that I bless, love, do good and forgive them?”

The first certified victim, labeled 0001, was Father Mychal Judge. Oh, right, he was an imperfect person, with personal struggles all his own, but, he bravely went in as the chaplain for the firefighters and became the first, out of hundreds who lost their lives that fall morning.

WHY this nightmare?? God, please, I need your light to understand where to go from here. A poetic writer, Caddo Veil, poignantly wrote, “God, be present and redeem…”

Finally, while struggling with my lack of forgiveness, I did find rays of hope shining through, first from John 16:33, Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.” Second, in Fulton Sheen’s simple, yet profound words, “To believe in God is to throw ourselves in God’s arms; to hope in God is to rest in His heart in patience amid trials and tribulations, to love God is to be with God through a participation of His divine nature through grace.”

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God, help me to believe and forgive through all circumstances.

In honor of those who lost their lives on September 11 and to all who are left to carry on in their memory…
I pray.

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Remembering an Amazing Mother…

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The amazing heart of Mother Teresa:
“The poverty of being unwanted, unloved and uncared for is the greatest poverty.”

“Being unwanted, unloved, uncared for…
Forgotten by everybody, I think that is much greater hunger,
A much greater poverty than the person who has nothing to eat.”
~Mother Teresa

Born Agnes Gonxha Bojaxhiu, Mother Teresa simply described herself as, “By blood, I am Albanian, by citizenship, an Indian. By faith, I am a Catholic nun.”

Her charitable legacy is known world-wide as her insightful thoughts…here are just a few of her heart thoughts…

“Lead me from death to life,
From falsehood to truth.
Lead me from despair to hope,
From fear to truth.
Lead me from hate to love,
From war to peace.
Let peace fill our hearts,
Our world our universe
Peace peace peace.

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“Be happy in the moment, that’s enough.
Each moment is all we need, not more.
Be happy now and if you show through your actions that you love others, including those who are poorer than you are, you will give them happiness, too.
It does not take much–it can be just giving a smile.
The world would be a much better place if everyone smiled more
So smile, be cheerful, and be joyous that God loves you.”

In honor of the amazing Mother Teresa, also known as the Saint-of-the-Gutters, may she rest in peace.

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August 27, 1910–September 5, 1997

I hope you enjoyed the few words from this amazing mother and I wish you abundant happiness and peace today.

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Do you have a favorite memory about Mother Teresa?

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